Out of pure insanity, there also comes pure genius. Take Kanye, for instance, he might be batcrap crazy, but sometimes he's also brilliant. Lately, I'm vibing with Yeezus.
I am at a point in my life where things appear batcrap--straight insane. I thought I had life figured out, and then a bump in the road came AND derailed what I thought was a perfect plan. And I like a plan. Give me a goal and some post-its or a journal and your girl goes to work. Derail my plans, and I get lost in an abyss of my own doubts and fears. That's a scary place ya'll!
Am I being melodramatic--absolutely! Don't you know that about me by now (if not see previous posts)? But I have received some blows that knocked the wind out of my sails. Sails I planned on using to ride right off into the sunset on. Yeah, it's a gut punch. I could let this serve as a warning to stop my foolish dreaming and be humble OR I could totally embrace my inner Kanye and go totally South side, fellow South Shorer to be exact, CRAZY! I choose the later being humble (having or showing a modest or low estimate of one's own importance) does not rate for me because like Yeezus I believe I am a GOAT. Before you judge me, shouldn't we all think this about ourselves? Our belief about ourselves is what should propel us.
As a result, the setbacks in my plans have only caused me to think bigger. Plan B will be better than Plan A (that thought is also insane) because I am birthed from big dreamers who pulled and tugged their dreams into existence. My parents, John and Bev, have done things people from their humble beginnings only dream of because they first created the reality in their minds and then waited and worked for the second reality to hit. Try to tell them No; they'd simply find a way to a better Yes.
I am finding my way to a better YES because that's the stock from which I come--brilliance, determination, hard work. There is no NO.
Yep, call me crazy! That, that, that don't kill me make can only make me stronger. I need you (dreams & Plan B) to hurry up now cause I can't wait much longer ...
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